For a lot of people, Asperger's Syndrome comes with a need for a consistent plan. I definitely fit in that category of Autistics; I NEED a plan in order to function.
I need to know what I am doing today. I need to know what must be done. I need to know what I want to be done. I need to know what others want to do. And then, after all of that, I need to adjust my schedule to fit everything together.
I have a small calendar on my desk which outlines the required activities of each day as well as my work schedule. I know that, if I'm not working, I'll spend my afternoon with my boyfriend. I know we'll either play board games or watch TV or play tennis. I know, after that, we'll cook dinner and eat together.
I've been anxious even with my calendar lately. It's kind of scaring me.
I don't do well with anxiety. And when I've been anxious a lot, I start getting anxious that I will get anxious. Which is absurdly absurd. Because anxiety is such a vague thing, it makes me feel completely useless for being anxious about anxiety. I mean, I really should be anxious about *something* if I'm going to be anxious at all, right?
I take medications which are supposed to make me less anxious. I don't know if they work. All I know is that I've been incredibly anxious today and I'm not sure why.
Any tips would be appreciated.
How do you deal with anxiety?
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