Thursday, 11 April 2013
Today is a Bad Day
I will endeavor to write this gracefully, but I am feeling very little grace at the moment.
I am feeling chaos. I am feeling like my world is spinning out of control. I woke up later than I wanted to. I owe a colleague five dollars but was unable to give it to her, since I woke up late. My friend worked all day and even though she said we'd get together tonight, she's decided she'd rather be alone. I put so much effort into an assignment and now I have to reformat it. I have to do two loads of laundry, have dinner, and plan a social activity for tomorrow. I have a lot of dishes to do and a shower to clean. I also have a headache, which is rather unpleasant.
I am an intelligent person and I know that this is not enough to ruin a day. But still, today's activities have been poorly organized and interspersed with bouts of crying. I have sat and cried for so long today that I feel numb. I am overwhelmed by the amount of things that thave not gone my way. I cannot think straight. I cannot be productive. I am really struggling to be content at all in this day and that itself is giving me anxiety.
I had a meltdown over nachos today. And then another meltdown for no apparent reason. I am bored and I am tired and I am hungry and I am grouchy.